Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Workout Goals

Forgot to post my recent goals. Sorta been all over the place. Its been a month since my contest. I been just trying to lift heavy as hell, and as much as I can. Following most of the Kris Gethin, DTP principles in order to build some lean muscle.

I really love focusing on my legs and butt for a most part, but I know that my back as well as my arms is a huge focus. My new goal for my next show is Figure. What is different between Figure and Bikini you may ask? Bikini: Healthy, slightly full curvier shape, toned and defined with only slight muscle separation through conditioning. Figure: Looking for healthy, athleticism of the physique. This is not a bodybuilding contest. A degree of muscular with separation is desire, but not excessive muscle should be seen. Muscle should be toned and lean.

My workout break up for the week
Mondays Legs
Tuesday Back/ Shoulders
Wednesday Chest Abs
Thursday Arms
Friday Butt
Saturday Full body Conditioning
Sunday Depending what I do on Saturday--I could end up doing full body again, in a different fashion or go hiking. Mostly a " Active Rest day" Not- active sleep all day and eat. I prep meals and make protein cookies.

Really my goals are to just enjoy everything. Get more muscle, of course eat healthy, workout daily, but really have a pretty balanced life.

Texting madness. Media Craziness.

We are all bombarded by all sorts of media. Phone, texts, internet, social media, you name it you can get bothered by it. Sigh--like things are not more connected most work places make you carry a work place. Sure you may think that is awesome, but an electronic leash syncing up to works servers, checking your location, all websites, and texts/calls is just more virtual attachment to the one thing I don't want. How does one take a step back from it all? Well for what boundaries. When I hit the gym, I listen to Pandora, everything gets blocked out. I go there to WORKOUT. When I am out with friends, my phone stays on the table or in the car- since I am there to SEE them. If someone truly needs to get me THEY can call. I am not too sure what is wrong with society at this point, but really how hard is a phone call. Texts are nothing, you can do them in mass quantity as it is.

Living in the quite digital world sets up for a lot of new challenges. You can be stuck on this stupid devices doing all sorts of things which truly avoiding what is in front of you. Your family, children, friends. I can recall countless times my friends pretty much texting or looking at their phones the entire time they were with me. How rude is that? What is the point right? I should of just stayed home and let them text me while i was in the comfort of my home or even walking around with my dog. There was a few occasions I actually almost took the phone out of my friends hands and threw it out the window. Just madness for some of the stuff I have seen. Just sickening.
There is so much disconnection from human interaction, most people don't know how to treat each other. Talk, hang out, or even just be there for people.

Technology can be a wonderful thing, but when it takes you away from something so fragile and so important its a bitter time in humanity when a stupid phone becomes more important than a human life. Take time to disconnect leave your phone wherever. You can always call whomever back, or text them back. Majority of the times its something silly anyway. I see the little games, the ridiculous texts people use against each other, marriages ending and relationships completely taking a tumble, and over what? Something just so silly and ridiculous. Time to talk to each other. Take a walk with your kids. Run with your dog and reconnect with your own self without any distractions. I bet that is something most people are not doing. When your out on a date or with someone you love, give them attention, or they will go find the attention somewhere else. Just that simple. What is truly important to you, texting, media, digital craziness? Emotional well being is much more important than anything and for many of us out there-- we have pretty much put these crazy devices superior.

As someone that works in the IT industry, yes I have two phones, one work and one personal. If I am not on call, I do not carry it with me, and if I am walking my dog, or hitting the gym, I am not looking at whats going on with facebook land. Apparently social etiquette is something that is lacking, and I am sure it will just get worse with people raising the next generations with phones and other devices. For today though, I am putting a stand on my own life, putting these things down and putting what truly is important first.

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Taking a stab at writing a children's book..

Growing up reading was an essential part of my life and although it was something was a constant struggle I had some amazing teachers, and family to guide me along the way. I hope to use my children's book idea - already have a few in design, my dog Denver and a few other "learning tales".. as a themed throughout the series and dedicate all the books to my favorite girls Ingrid, Kelsey and Halina.

This idea came to me since I am constantly taking my dog Denver, on adventures and he is always getting into some "mess", and someone always has to bail him out it seems. I would like to share these stories with children and truly make a difference.

For Anyone that like to donate to this cause and get these books out there quicker-- check it out! Donate here. Any proceeds from future books will be going to my nieces (Which have their issues) as well as donating a portion of these books for publishing to local libraries, schools, etc.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Supersize with a Diet Coke Please!

I often watch people around me, what they eat, what they do, how they act, all of that. I get criticized in every direction, and its something I have gotten used to. As someone whom has learned how I like to live and what I need from life, you learn that food really? Is not the be all and end all. Living in a world, where that's the focal point on pretty much every event, can be a pretty difficult thing. Everyone wants to go out, celebrate, etc and go out. Do I want to go out? Honestly no. How can we change this? Well, be better than just a supersize me world. Do better, be better and not just be lazy sitting on ones ass while teaching other generations around us. Over the last few years I really have gotten to the point there is so much around us that has to be seen, and there is a huge world just outside our comfort zone. Sure you need to eat, plan it out though, spend less and prepare your meals, be healthier. It starts with you, especially if you are someone that others look up to. Be the better person. Be that person that lives above the Super Size me world. Does it have to be something crazy? No, but living with self imposed diabetics, obesity, is not something I intend to do to myself, nor being an unhealthy skinny person, or skinny fat. Learn to enjoy nature, take hikes, walks, picnics and enjoy the little things in life. Get out, enjoy it all and leave out the supersize items. Your waist line will thank you!

Friday, November 27, 2015

Stress outlet for this Fall

As the days are shorter, its colder and your bundling up more how does one continue to get their stress out? Well, sitting on the couch, eating and doing nothing isn't a really a good option. You need to look at the bigger picture here, especially going into Fall- you still have like 6 month of coldness upon us. There are still so many things to do to get through. Look into some new hobbies, look up new hikes in your area, enjoy the amazing foliage, bike the scenery and enjoy your area. Hiking, biking, hit up the trails, or just get out in your own area. I live right by the ocean, which is pretty amazing in itself. I live less than 5 minutes away from a tourist area, which for 8 months of the year I get it to myself and my dog. Enjoy the piece and quiet, take walks, runs, you name it. And just allow my brain to wander for a bit, while getting some exercise.

Sure its cold, bundle your butt up. Remember the colder it is, the more your body has to work to keep warm, so you will be doing yourself a service by getting out there. So get out there, hat, mittens, scarf, grab your exercise partner and snuggle up with some coffee. Burn those calories. For me, this is a great addition to my regular gym routine. Gym gets boring, winters can be long and hard in the Northeast, and times like this can be something you need to do to get out there. You need to make sure you get your stress out no matter what your doing, so while everyone is huddled up feeling like they are going to hibernate, get out there, get it done and keep active, moving, loving life. Your summer body will thank you as well as your BRAIN! So once that day is at an end, go back inside locate a nice cuddle buddy and watch some Netflix. Sex can do as well, especially if you can keep your activity levels up and your heat down. ;-)

Keep those stress levels down, stay calm and you too can have a stress free Fall.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Power of staying Positive and Going with it.

Going with the flow and hoping to just continue with whatever design nature truly has for us. I guess this is something that truly had to learn more to go with. Life just isn't something that can be easy and many times you just want to just break down.

Everything in life has some sort of timing, whether its a timing of some craziness or even something out of the ordinary, its not something you can have control of. You can fall in and out of love with someone at anytime, or even find you were not meant for that person. As time ticks on, we tend to realize you just can't force certain things in life and our own wishes, desires, demands, don't just happen, they often have to take a back seat for a bit while we figure certain things out and make them happen since no one else is going to make them for us.

With every breathe you just need to learn to appreciate what life truly gives us, rather than just holding ourselves back. Screw the mold, screw the way everyone does things. You want something? Go for it. You want to go out on your own? Do it. The unfortunately part that way we think and act many times contradicts how things are normally acted upon. There is no way to control the universe. No way to control anything, anyone, you might think so, but there is no possibility to do this. So, what should we do? Stay positive no matter what. There are things in life that just happen, its just that easy. SHIT HAPPENS, you know that saying? Well, it does. People leave, people stop caring, loving, whatever, IT HAPPENS. Its life. With that you just have to go with the flow and make what you want out of whatever pieces fall. That smile, positivity with no matter what is going on can bring you far. Fighting and keeping in negativity, can't get you too far and unfortunately with that type of behavior affects everything around you.

Face your demons head on, I have. I come from nothing and I am never afraid to go back, I need no one and with that I KNOW I can do anything I set my mind at. Keeping that positivity in my back of my hand is what gets me far, while other will keep a more negative outlook and can actual infringe on their lives. What do you want in life? How do you want other to perceive you? Regardless of what you think you are, the truth always come out, so live accordingly, follow through and always live true to yourself. Life has a funny way coming back around no matter what is happening. So folks, stay positive, fck the negative and toss anyone out of your life that causes any issues. Life is truly too short for this. We aren't promised lots of time, and many times we are taken way too short from our loved ones, so show people how much you care for them, make the changes you need and never be around to make that positive step. There are no second chances and with a positive mind things can be more clear on a regular basis. What will you choose? I know what I truly want and truly am, as for others? That's their own journey, as for mine any stress/cortisol levels can cause increase of fat increase, which I rather not have. Hugs and kisses to any of my critics, but for this lucky, happy girl, although I might not have it all, I am actually going for it, working for it all, myself without anyone's help. And with that-that means more than anything unlike something given to someone. Positive life. Positive outlook is what I hope to teach. Cheers to everyone and off to locate some red wine. ;-)

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Post Body Blues

Its been a week or so since my contest. Peak week and day of your body is running on extremes. Either, over hydrated, under carbs, etc--than boom your body is perfect for like 5 seconds. I am trying to do this 100% naturally so these types of things, carb cycling, over hydrated are all ways to clear your system and bring your levels, as well as pop your abs and everything else you need to show. But here's the thing, you can't keep these levels on a daily basis, year round, for many reasons. For one I have a thyroid problem. When you bounce back and forth with your diet, fats, sugars and all of that you screw with it. This is why carb cycling works, your body starts to use the carbs and all of that more efficient and then BOOM pounds and fat melt off pretty quickly. Here's the deal though, you gotta be in THAT triad zone. And for a female, that's a level where you enter screwing with your actually cycle levels.

Regardless, I have gained 5 pounds since the contest, do I look it? Honestly no. I feel more filled in and better muscle definition in now, I felt pretty flat towards the end of the day of the contest with next to little or no water, fat or any other basic foods that I had to stop giving my body to make sure it didn't suck the muscle out of me. Have I learned from this experience? Yes, next time I will eat a little bit differently. But I need to understand, that the levels where I was at are not anything that can be kept year round, just is not healthy at all. I was weak, loss of energy and my mental capacity was at a all time low. It sucked. I love my body where it is, I hate being too skinny and I hate being too weak. I need the energy for my two jobs, taking care of people and everything else in my life. And for that you need food and the true workouts that my body is truly used to. Lifting heavy. Its quite funny in most sports arenas, you go into the ring with the best package and MOST strong and in bodybuildling you pretty much bring it down and show up very weak, looking like a hungry Ethiopian. Its just a funny outlook to see, its a learning experience, lots of fun and ran into a lot of great people.

A tell all.

I been pondering a lot lately. And I feel I have a lot to offer the world, especially my story and my future generation. There is a lot that is hidden from my audience at this time and I feel its got to come out. I was considering having some come out in around 17--18 years but, considering this is the time for things to come out, I am starting to write two books. One is for my nieces and a special little girl in my life, as well as a book surrounding my life. I have a lot of passion in my life, and there have been a lot of hurtful people that have tried to bring me down, especially on the internet. There are a lot of assholes out there and those people are very miserable people no matter what position they are in life. As for me, I am going to share it all and with that, I will have truly have nothing to hide, since I have nothing to be ashamed of at the end of the day. I am proud of whom I am and have never lied, although others around me have and walked away, which is their decision, but I can no longer keep completely quiet. Things will come out eventually and especially with a special life in this world that is on my side, there will be questions and I would like everything to be documented for her.
Life is a complicated thing, and there are no books on this, or even what to do. I am taking the bull my the horns and taking care of it on my own. I am not a sheep, I am a Lion. I don't need any one in my life or anyone's hold on me. I guess in a sense I am glad that certain people walked out on us, regardless one day some of these people will see what they have done and by then it will be too late. Life has a funny way on turning back around and the truth will always come out, its just that easy. And any strong willed person could see that. Until then, always go with your heart. Certain things will always come first and life--is a beautiful thing, especially ones that have been created out of craziness.

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Show Day.

Before I completely forget to blog about show day, here we go. I decided to stay up in Boston, since I live about 2 hours from the venue. I packed my meals with me, I ate chicken and a half cup of sweet potatoes every two hours from Friday until 12pm on Saturday. Saturday I couldn't drink a lot since you don't want to be too bloated and not to mention have to pee. Regardless this is how the day went.

500AM. I woke up to my alarm, slightly looked at it and went really? ITS TODAY.
510AM. I called my coach to tell her I was feeling and to get more instructions, regarding how much I needed to eat, tell her how I was feeling and to see how "full I looked." This was important since we need to know if I needed to EAT more to fill in the abs or even the ass, which are the important parts obviously. Mind you at this point I am literally dreading every bite I am eating of chicken and sweet potatoes, so when I see people eat anything else I want to rip their faces off.
545AM. I put my large sweat pants on and shirt on, clean off my face and start doing my hair (pin it in place) and doing my first layer of makeup, since I knew it be a crazy day going in/out of the dressing room, and dealing with a billion people throughout the day. Mind you the show for me I didn't walk on stage until 4pm.
725AM. Eating my second meal of the morning, than head over to breakfast with my friend, I watch him eat an amazing egg omlet, bacon and whatever else his greasy ass can get to. (slightly I am cursing him out and anyone around me eating anything.. ) Sigh, waitress keeps asking me if I would like anything but I know I can't eat anything of what they have not even a glass of water...so I slightly tell her no and "sip" slowly on my coffee.
745AM. Head out to the venue, to get some parking.
815AM. Well, we find the venue but there is city parking like 5 blocks down the road and its a cold ass windy day and I am wearing baggy sweats, no undies and are in sandals..Yup totally makes sense-- walking through the city of Boston, with my hair pinned up in place, full face of makeup and holding two large bags around me..as I walk to the venue.
835AM. Get to the venue, we part ways and I head to register and put my stuff down in the dressing room.
915AM. I need to get tanned. We aren't talking some vacation tan, I need to get sprayed as dark as possible to look like a char coaled human and stand around a fan, so I don't get the crappy tan on my clothes.
945AM. Still waiting around in front of the fan, mind you there are other girls around you standing in front of the fans. All of us butt naked, chilling and hoping our tans get dry soon so we can continue on our day without trying to rub off our tans. (for those that don't know, this sucks and you can't get WATER on this tan..this makes for having to pee later in the day even more that awesome..more in a bit.)
1015AM. I finish checking and and getting my membership card for NPC. Competitors are in the audience area and things are starting to get exciting. Everyone is tanned and walking around in large sweat pants. (lots of attractive, tanned, muscle meats heads everywhere..) ;-)
1030AM. Compeitor meeting to discuss the day. More of a BS session, but all good.
1100AM. Show starts and like 25+ other classes start...so I watch which is pretty interesting in itself, let me tell you. The different bodies and knwoing the dedication for something like that is something we all could admire while there. Everyone had some sort of food container on them or water jug, so everyone understood the struggle.
1200PM Last meal and last few rice cakes before I could go on, so I could fill in some more.
12-330PM. I pretty much watching the classes still, I start sweating around my leg area and realize oh crap, there goes some of my tan.
330PM. I have to pee. When you sign up for these things and your coach tells you, when you have to use the bathroom you cannot pee regular, why not? Cause if you get water on your tan your screwed and it will SHOW. Well, guess what, I didn't manage to pee on myself, but I did manage to wipe off some of the tan on my pants after I washed my hands, so I had to get this fixed.
345PM. I get my tan fixed by the lovely tan people, and allow them to apply butt glue to my suit. YUP that was an awesome experience.
400PM. I start my massive wait to get on stage. There is a billion bikini girls and we are broken up into heights. Mind you the short divisions have more in them and the competition is a little harder since that makes it harder for the judges. At this point I am sick of waiting and my Feet and my hungry/thirst start to kick in. I can feel my brain getting a little weak and my muscle start to deflate.
445PM. Yes I FINALLY step On stage. This is some scary shit let me tell you. Trying to strut my stuff and look at the judges, make eye contact, smile, keep my arches, suck in my stomach, show my angles and muscles..and rest of my posing down..while watching the judges TEXT right in front of you. Thanks buddy I am glad your actually paying attention. I go ahead and do my "booty pop, bend over pose.." and go to look over my shoulder, now I can see the entire audience. Yup--I should not have done that, now I am nervous and I go back to the line where I wait, until they call us out in groups to start the body comparisons. With this they move people back/forth to have a proper comparison of the different types of body types, heights, muscles, etc.
600PM. Show finally over and the guys are starting to come back on stage, for the FINAL performance--which starts at 6. All the call outs and whatnot, were up next. Which is another 4-6 hours depending on how quick, this show goes a bit faster.
1000PM. Did I win? No. I got a few call outs, yes. But from what I could see there is a theme of the night and maybe I did have too much muscle for the division I was in. My body is what it is, and I am grateful for that. I am BY no means a skinny person, but built like a brick house. But the top five girls, were tall skinny girls, with slight muscle definition.
1030PM. Left and headed out with my friend and got a burger, fries and a glass of wine. Was pretty amazing meal, I especially ate it pretty slow and INDULGED eating it and took it in!! Mind you have not had my favorite meal in like 6+ months.
1130PM. I take a shower and my entire tan goes down the DRAIN just like that. YEA!! I am not longer looking like a tanned orange person, although I felt it was sorta crazy that it didn't last a few days, especially for the amount of money it cost.
1145PM. I head to bed and FINALLY drink some water.
Well that's the day in a nutshell, I hope to write more about the experience and my final thoughts on the entire process, but I need to eat more and FIX my mental/physical status of feeling like an emaciated brain dead skinny person. I have no idea how people don't eat, or not EAT every few hours. Those people are crazy to me. Anyway, write more later on the topic and whatever else I feel that should be discussed.

Friday, November 13, 2015

#1 Day out.

One day out. Yes its TOMORROW. Not to mention the diet has put my body into hyper drive. I am eating literally 8-9 times a day, and I have already drank a gallon of water already and its not even 1 pm. So as you could guessed I am running around stuff as hell and not venturing too far from the bathroom. My bag is packed, ready to do this. As I wake up daily this week I have noticed changes daily, from the high carb days, low and no carbs and back to recycling back to high carb days. Pretty amazing stuff. Looking forward to tomorrow and any drama, or negativity can flake off. Already had to deal with some crazy whackadoo family member, which will remain nameless that was telling me I was doing something completely crazy. Thanks, you could of waited until next week darling huh? Gotta love people. Anywho-- eating, drinking away and resting before I head up to Boston. Wish me Luck! I will be posting pictures tomorrow throughout the day of the exciting day!!

Monday, November 9, 2015

Peak Week. Feeling Weak.

Well its here. Whether you know it is or not, your suddenly just eating chicken and asparagus, while you water consumption has reached well over a gallon a day. Going out makes for a comical time, since trying to explain how you want food prepared, makes it pretty much not worth it and you just eat home all the time. You cannot do anything you want, your constantly asking how certain things are made and asking if it can be made "healthier". I like to live a life of a healthy balance normally, but I found in order to be in full control as I am you need to have a strong mind. Which is easier said than done.

Work outs are easy, staying active, cardio, but diet is single handed can be the most difficult portion. There is just so much awesome food out there. And I truly miss pizza and cookies smile emoticon I can't wait to start lifting heavy again, building back up, and getting my "ass" back where it needs to be. Feeling weak with a strict diet is emotional draining and physically test of wills. I have literally no cognitive mental capacity this week, so I am hoping things don't get too stressful and do taxing, since I can't handle anything too great. Brain needs carbs and fats, its just that simple. At this point I am dumber than a monkey and weak as hell. I hate that feeling. Sure I have abs--but at what cost?
So next time you look at those ads and magazines of those perfect abs are you willing to give up your diet for 6 months and confine it to a certain food groups. Takes time, patience, proper planning. Sure I will do it again, since I like this sorta experiment. For anyone saying I am too small for my contest prep, they can simply go to hell, since I will be back to my old self in a few weeks with enough muscle to rock and roll- them off a cliff. And of course more blog posts, about the negative impact of body image. I have further more broke all my nails this week from all sorts of stress between trying to maintain my lifestyle around this prep. My two jobs, animals, work training (studying for a MAJOR test certification for work) and my friends/family. Through this whole thing I had to deal with death, within the family, nieces in/out of the hospital (which truly sucks!) and still being able to stick to my workouts--as well as prepping my food.

Takes real mental power to do this. I know not everyone can do this, but I am not your normal chick by any means.

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

#3weeks out from NPC

Okay-- this s$it truly got real. Okay really? 3 weeks out you finally realize this? Nope. At 7 weeks, when I had to start this crazy train diet and extra 2 a day workouts that's when it became an investment. It became a relationship..well more than that, my coach owned me, and I had to start writing down everything I ate, drank, as well as all activity levels. And I mean ALL ACTIVITY levels. Yes this includes all cardio, monkey activities and sexual activities. Weekly measurements started and I had to hop on the scale. Yes--that's the device that tells you how much you weigh. That's the device I told you NOT TO LOOK AT, since its total BS. It I still believe so. From March I was around 18% BF.

June I was 16% And now, I am 12%. Yes 12%-- this is probably the least amount of body fat I have had ever which is pretty crazy to me. Just think of this average female in the US is around 28-32%-- and healthy is 25%. So yea 12% is very low. Its not something that you can just do. Careful planning, timed workouts and diets changed. Also, avoiding most restaurants or going out with friends (drinking)--helps a lot as well. I just did not go out, I hit the gym, prepped meals, walked my dog on the beach, hung with my horses and hung out with people that were positive influences in my life. Anyone that did not get it, I cut out. It is just that simple. I start to hear it now, "your too skinny.." Why not-- "your working really hard, GREAT JOB". At times its can be hard, since you go between carb and no carb days. Its not like I don't work, so I work long days including weekends, have other jobs I go to and still have to deal with family, friends, animals and my WORKOUTS. Tempers can flare, energy is lacking and many times you just stop caring about other things, since the mental capacity has reached its maximum limit. What have I learned in the last 6 months until now? Well, I am stronger than I thought. Sure, lifting weight is pretty bad ass and I can pretty much get my body in anyway I can but truly following a diet outside of the gym, and staying with it is something that most people just cannot do. Might I add, to do it completely natural too. (homegirl don't mess around with anything extra other than her basic supplements and vitamins).

I know where I have started, I know where I need to continue. Pretty much I know my strength inside and out. Mental strength is what gets me out of all the things I need to get through and the physical aspect is just on portion. Diet, workouts, relearning how to walk in heels, looking at myself in the tiniest of bikini's (which I gotta say is not a NORMAL thing at all). I will have to write more about that one, its not like me as a Northeastern I would wear one ever, and if so its under a wetsuit. Its a lot to get over. Your standing in front of your coach allowing them to critique you. Show you flaws, which most people would never see. Never complain about. Every wrinkle, bubble, stretch marks, scar, fat, you name it. Doesn't matter how SKINNY you are, there are things that are going on. I have scars from previous surgeries on my stomach, my face, my shoulders..I have stretch marks on my outside of my legs. Most people wouldn't see these, hell my ex's used to say they liked them. I guess to me that was crazy talk, but regardless these things are brought up especially in a competition world. So 3 weeks to go over walking, getting leaner, eating well, breaking up my diet even further to get a perfect physique that I can get. Its not about competing what other girls have, its about what I can achieve. No one else is me, no one else has my frame. I intend to do the very best as I draw closer to my goal. I'm excited to see the results, if anything I have learned more about myself in the process than I ever have and with that I am truly grateful.

Prepping for Travel

There's so many ways to prep for travel, whether your going to be researching where your staying or even bringing your meals. It doesn't have to be over complicated. Just bring your good eating along with you and your guidelines and it will allow you to stay on path. Don't believe me? Well it can be that easy. Just takes proper prep. Knowing the area your in and understanding what types of foods you should limit. Also--keep in mind how much movement you will be doing. Activity levels is huge dependent on your level you will be doing or not-- whether you will go low carbs or a heavy carb day. These things should all be taken into account.

Step 1 Research the area of foods. 1: Will you be staying in a hotel with a kitchen or at least some form of microwave and fridge? These types of things can open up a few options. For example-- is you are staying in a place with a kitchen, which frankly is my favorite type since I can save money, and as well as save my gut from horrible food around me and stay on track; you can just hit the local grocery store pick up a few things. Eggs, almond milk, cinnamon, few different spices, chicken, and other lean proteins. Obviously pick a few other things, fruits, veggies, yogurt, and throw in some oats, then your pretty much good to go.

When I used to travel quite often for work, I had an awesome coworker that pretty much know my diet pretty well, he get all these essentials and have them ready in our work fridge or hotel fridge, it was pretty perfect. We both ate healthy and there was no issues. 2--Obviously if you don't have a hotel kitchen, you go to the next best thing. Premade foods. Prep chicken prior going on your trip, ground chicken/turkey or lean beef. Pick up a rottassaire chicken, yogurt, oats, precut fruit, and steam-able veggies and rice. Regardless of what you get on your trip, kitchen or no kitchen you can fit it in. There shouldn't be any reason for you to go off course especially if you properly prepare.

Step 2- Pack your pre-cooked whatever or other seasonings (low sodium) or whatever else you want to season your foods, as well as some Tupperware containers. Step 3-- RESEARCH AREA of placse to eat at. Yes you know you will do it while away, whether work trip, pleasure, whatever, meet up gathering with some weekend away what have you, does it matter? You need to stay healthy. Personally I want to keep my abs and not revert to my fat nor my too skinny self, so I will go overboard with making sure these things are in place. I am sure some people will see this as being anal. But the results are in the pudding. I get the results I want. You just have to be consistent at all times. Simple as that. You stay on course all the time, don't allow for cheat days and allow for "cheat snacks or meals..". And with travelling you sorta have to compromise certain things, and for me prepping ahead of time just makes the most sense so I don't mess up. Or after a day working a 15 hour day- I don't eat some crappy food with a coworker, its just too easy. I don't want easy. Abs aren't made with pizza or nasty ass taco bell.

Step 4- For meals you know you are going to cheat, low carb it right after that meal or snack, or go NO CARB. Yes it will even out. Stay active, stay healthy and keep moving. Never keep a dull moment and you will not gain any crazy weight or bring home an extra spare love handle on your waist line.

So-- to my readers enjoy your time whatever your doing, but in reason. Health doesn't get a holiday, nor does diabetics, high blood pressure, or high cholesterol. Stay balanced, stay in control. And if you with someone push them to stay on that course together, since when you have someone else accountable its can be that much more enjoyable.

Cheers!!

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Keeping on Course during Work Travel

So, you gotta travel for work. O Crap, what is one to do? Don't fret you have this. Proper prep can ensure you stay on track with your fitness goals, as well as stay on track with your diet and still allow some wiggle room to enjoy a treat here there. Why not right? Especially if business is paying.

First of all do some meal prep prior. I am not talking full boar crazy like your Sunday meal preps at home, I am talking something easy. I pack this cooked foods either in a zipper lock bag or Tupperware containers. I bring a few extras with some plastic silverware, as well with some plain mustard. Ground Turkey, Chicken Lean Patties, Grilled chicken, Tuna Packets, Protein Packets and when you get to your destination pick up some microwaveable veggies, or some broccoli slaw in order to have a nice side to add. I am not saying you have to prep all your meals, but this knocks out majority of the meals on the go and allows you to worry about the task at hand. Work. Since lets face it when your out on work, you just can't leave a facility or a warehouse, at times your there for 12 + hours and having some form of food on me has helped me in a pinch.

Most hotels I stay at usually have a free breakfast, I will ask for egg whites or plain oatmeal ( with no sugar or milk ). For any other side meals you might take on you just choose wisely. Order plain saddles with veggies with either grilled chicken or fish or lean steak--with dry seasonings. Make sure you specify this or you will soon find out that your protein was cooked in butter or some other high calories, fatty oil.

Things don't have to be complicated. You know what you need to do, you know what you need to avoid. Any fast food I will just stay away from, since I know I will get sick in some fashion and being sick on a work trip just isn't very fun.

With your food prep ready to go for your trip, protein powder, supplements and coffee in hand, your ready to go. Eat Healthy. There are healthy options everywhere you look, you just need to ask and you will get them. Its just that simple.

Friday, October 23, 2015

The Strong will Survive.

There are lots of different ways to look at this. Strong physically, intellect, desire, and passion. What works to keep kicking around? Well that's a tough one. I would like to say that the strongest will win, but without a healthy aspect of physical condition with some sort of intelligence, you don't have a chance. (Or at least if your with someone to make you rise above and survive.)

If you look back to a century ago, if you were not watching out you probably did not make it. No one was going to watch out for you. If you got ill, you died. If you didn't eat well you died. There was not anything they could do, it was just simple. If you weren't smart enough to take care of yourself, your surroundings you would be dead. Hospitals were few and far between, medicine was something only for the very rich, and child birth most of the time meant something close to a death sentence due to be bleeding out or other complexity issues. (Remember it was not until modern days society, birth was even become safe.and in the US--we still have the highest death rate for their birth rates.) Not to mention issues with babies, there wasn't any special medicine or procedures. People knew, strong survived and in that way of living that baby would not live if there were any issues, it was just that simple. Have we become a society of slowly becoming more weak? Are we less intelligent? Are we less healthy than we were prior? Well when we first set on this earth now, we are brought into the mix either some medical procedure of some sort, whether monitoring or even some form of extra care in order to make sure some form of our development is continued. Would we have done this century ago? No, we wouldn't. We would not have blinked, smudged, sure frowned and been sad, but lets face it if you were not going to be any worthwhile to the family or the world in some way on the farm, you were just going to be a hindrance to humanity as a whole.

Mind you I am not saying or suggesting in anyway or shape, that we should kill humans, but do we make the human race weak by maybe crossing that line and trying to push life on creatures, especially when they might not meant for this world. Its a harsh reality, but in many societies and other countries its still pretty much life or death situation. And the strong survive. Genes, health, strength and how you use your survival skills keeps you alive. How do we actually use any of these things as Americans? Not that much, we tend to struggle with health at times, blame genetics and hopefully take a magic pill or whatever magic cure a doctor, (which is not even that much better, since these drugs have harsh symptoms than most regular illness that are out there..)

What do you choose? How do you view it? Strong will survive? The weak were meant to die? There are so many ways to view this. I tend to disagree with many of the modern technologies and modern health procedures. Most illness and diseases that are out there are self afflicted. The drugs to heal the body by modern medicine, make someone worse. You never heard of anyone getting sick of eating a healthy, with a well balanced meal plan covering veggies, fruits, lean proteins and very minimal sugars. You cannot beat a bad diet. You cannot beat this at all. If you skinny and you still eat poorly, you are unhealthy and whether your able to see that your insides say different and for your future offspring you will cast off a poor gene pool of that. This is how we start to weaken the gene pool. This is how we make human kind weaker. Think of poor breeding with animals? Its the same thing. We all have the power to change our genes. We have the power to make it different for our own gene pools, our own family.

In the wild its the strong, smartest and the healthiest animals that survive. Not the ones that are too skinny or overweight, that are slower. Its just that simple. Nature is just that simple. And as far as how much we have meddled and completely messed up our human race gene pool, I am not sure on the full negative affects, but as I see more kids born into a medical environment, and therefore continue on with other medical conditions throughout life, this truly makes me think what we are doing to the humankind as a whole. We did not have this issues generations ago. Before the crazy procedures, medicines that can cause ill affects to organs or even cause death and other processed foods which can cause other self inflicted issues. So-- in our culture do the strong survive? Sure they do. But unlike the wild kingdom we allow for the weak to continue living. Should we? I'm sure its a force completely against nature. Regardless it doesn't matter, unless we actually do something about it. Start living healthier so we can have a stronger, smarter tomorrow that would be the first step. Until then, we are just merely sheep caught up in a trap a struggle between the strong taking care of the weak.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Escaping the toxic trap

As a person that is truly into health inside and out-- I see it quite often toxicity of a situation, whether its mental or physical. I see how people send off these toxic vibes for either, whether its to their parents or to themselves. Which in itself is even a worse situation to be in. Nothing worse than impending toxins to your own-self and not taking ownership of your own actions.

I was raised in a very loving situation, two loving parents, been together for over 45 years together, rarely fight and work together in every aspect of life. Both worked together, my mom cleaned, cooked, baked, you name it she did and my dad worked 2 jobs to provide for his family. Pretty amazing right? So I tend to hold things to this kind of standard. Is it wrong? I don't believe so, things are not that complicated, they shouldn't be that crazy or should need to have to work too much to make it work...if you do then its not worth doing. I truly try not to be judgmental on certain aspects, but really there are parts of life that shouldn't be miserable or difficult. Life should just work, relationships shouldn't be a struggle and there shouldn't be legal brought into such lifestyles.

Sound like you? Sound like someone you know? Husband and wife, or gf or bf, etc, fight in day in or day out, over EVERYTHING. Yup, that's toxic. I hear the stories, I been married for 17 something years since high school, so what? You been miserable. I'm glad you will spend the rest of your life trapped, in misery and dragging anyone around you in the same way, including your children. Personally this is no way to live. Its unhealthy. Things should just work and as a health perspective its toxic which can hinder other parts of your life and impend into your family life, especially if you have children. Remember those little eyes you think that might know, do know and one day that could affect them in terrible manner.

Negative attitudes. Hostile environments. If that's how you want to live until the day you die, go for it. I rather be single than have to answer to some bitchy spouse or someone that has no self worth that doesn't take care of themselves. Personally, taking personal responsibility for my life and those that look up to me is a huge deal. I only hope the best for friends and family. I hope people would jump out of a toxic situation rather keep going back to the craziness, just because they feel that its comfortable. Just like my parents and my grandparents before them, they were very happy. Lived life to the fullest, worked hard and truly wanted us. It was not complicated, it was not something they had to work too hard for and they were no crazy outbursts at anytime or cops brought in. I would know ;) I was a very nosy child that had to know what was going on at all times. I tend not to feel sorry for people stuck, they allow the situation to continue. For me anyone, I would never allow such behavior to ever occur. I don't need anyone to feel whole and if I wanted something I get it, its just that simple.

Cheers to anyone else with a different opinion but, since this is my blog its my opinion. What I do feel sorry for is those poor kids raised in those sorry situations, being tossed around which didn't asked to be brought onto this earth. Regardless I ramble on. Stay well. Stay positive and leave any situation that affects your life negatively. Hurts your health or anyone around you which you truly care about, including your kids.

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Let food be thy medicine and medicine by thy food

Let food be thy medicine and medicine by thy food ... Hippocrates

Its funny with this transformation I am suddenly not the "norm". But really how did the norm become its okay to eat all this processed and sugary food. Eating lots of veggies a day and lean protein, is abnormal? Well its really what our body was designed for. Sure I had my headaches since I was removing certain things from my diet, but in reality those things weren't meant to be in my body anyway.

If more people looked at food this way, as a way to heal there probably less issues especially in a country where there are so many issues with a relationship with food. And in theory food is for one thing to provide nutrition to the body and that's it, not a way to entertain ourselves.Your body can work in a pretty amazing way, but just as a car you provide it with not the correct nutrition, your bound for a break down.


Worry less about the weight, worry about those macros put in that mouth. Put down the chunky monkies and the fried whatever balls and think to yourself? Will this help my diet, how does it fit in? Add to the list if you have kids, are you a good example? Are you creating a future problem? Think about that. What you do on a regular basis is an example for future generations, have a good diet, eat well, and have a good balance. Live life sure. But over do it? Nope. I'm a good role model and for my little nieces and whatever little rugrats see me--I want them to see what I eat. There is another way to do it. The body needs fresh veggies, fruit and lean proteins. Just the way it is. Sugary and processed have no true source in our bodies.

So as I go through this massive experiment on my body, sure most will think this is intense but really how much food do you eat that you truly don't need? How much food are you eating that isn't even from the earth? Have you calculated what your body truly needs? Most people have not. By unlocking this massive code in my body I am able to see other attributes of foods I have never even imagine, with this hope to help others in the future. Hopefully that will ensure other generations and create healthy relationships with food.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

Test of the wills

Last few weeks have been a test of the minds let me tell you with lots of show prep. Social norm is obviously the opposite way, but when people eat healthy and workout a lot, its suddenly an issue. As a fitness person you teeter in weight, its actually very common and whether I am 120 or 150, it doesn't matter my measurements speak volumes, as well as my body fat %.

I strive for whatever at the time my ideal is, whether show, lifestyle or whatever hell the goal might be. Sure I am lean and I will get leaner, its the goal and its show season. But I guess if I was going the other way people would be okay with that? I doubt that as well, and they would tell me I was getting chubby. With anything it takes great strength to pull yourself through something and trying to achieve a more perfect physique especially for competing you have to be willing to do whatever it takes. Yup, cutting some carbs, cutting sugars, cutting dairy. And Changing workouts, ADDING in cardio.

There are no short cuts. No pills, or any easy answers. Takes daily work regardless of whatever your fitness goals. Get up stay active, there are no rest days in life.

Am I perfect no? Do I try to control my surroundings? Yes. I will remove myself around people or things that will affect my goals, its just that simple. Obviously there are items I cannot control.

At this time I am dealing with a terrible painful, emotional roller coaster of losing something very close to me. RiRa. I know some people might not understand this kinda of connection, but I am told its very similar of those with a child. Regardless, he has been my guiding light for many years. Helped me through many hard times and very shortly I will have to say good bye.. You don't get to pick good times or bad. There are seasons for everything. We all go through it. I am going to beast through and use my pain and letting go of this amazing horse which helped me in every inch of my life, as my force to continue. Life isn't always 100% way you want, it never will be. There are things you want, sure..but you know what you need. Your inner self knows what your suppose to be doing, and many times doing the right thing honestly will feel like the worst possible thing ever, but in the case with my beloved horse RiRa, his options are very limited. He is in pain and I cannot allow a friend of mine like this to continue. I am giving myself sometime obviously to adjust to the idea of letting go, but regardless it will be rough. I will overcome it. I look at him and he tells me what I need to do. Nature tells you if you listen and I have my ears pretty open at this point to figure it out. There is a time for everything and a season...and for this season the start of Fall--a loss of a friend will have to be something in the cards for me.

Remembering how far I came, what I had to do to get there..as with my horse remembering the good times. The amazing beach rides, horse shows, trail rides and whatever snuggle sessions I stole in between moon lighting. I am truly blessed. I am glad that I have such amazing friends and family, to be able to support me through probably one of the more difficult times in my life. (Honestly, probably even worse then me filling out divorce papers..)- hey I'm honest with this one. My horse is worth a lot in my eyes.

Not everything in life is cheery or happy, its just that simple. This season apparently in my life is setup for heartache, loss and emotional turmoil. But how will I overcome? Well only way I know really know how. Keeping control of my workouts daily, keeping my head in the game and prepping my meals. I cannot control other crazy people or whatever else illness/accidents that can occur on my friends/animals, but my own life I have control. I know what I am doing, who I am and what I am capable of doing. Everything else is just noise from others. Taking the horse blinders out for a bit to even get more focused. This pony has her eye on the prize and November 14th, regardless what obstacles come my way I will attack them full force, no matter what they are.

Monday, September 7, 2015

Things I would tell my 20 year old self.

I will never say I will regret anything I have done or whom I was with. That’s just not how I am. My life, my experiences are built around different relationships and for that I cherish those memories, all good and bad. Although my marriage did take the tail end for the worse, I truly feel that has made me a better person. Obviously hindsight is 20/20 and it does nothing for me now, but as in anything when you are young you tend to do childish things.

You tend to see everything in a greater light. Things are rosy, and anything can happy. You don’t see the negative of what may be right in front of you. Any relationship we be difficult, it’s just the fact of life. It’s very rare any of us get insight at that very moment or advice which we could have embraced. I have made a lot of mistakes in my past, I am not perfect by any means, and some had led to my divorce.

What I would tell my bubbly 20 year old self was, slow down and relax. Why would I suggest this? Normally people are in such a rush to do it all. You know the phrase, “when you’re older…” Yup, you hear this all the time growing up for things like education, meeting the man of your dreams, marriage, kids, etc. Take your time. Rethink what you’re about to do, and think “How will this better my life in 5 years, 10 years, etc….how will I change..How can I…” I feel many people don’t do this enough, and that is the problem in the world. Getting married early 20's sounds like a FANTASTIC idea, but really in the scheme of things, is probably one of the dumbest things I could have done. I didn't know myself truly then. From 22 to 32, I am quite a different person. That's not a bad thing, but its the truth. Sure I was educated and had my first "corporate job..", thought I was in love, I guess I was in love with the "idea of love". The idea of love sure is great, but love doesn't get your far. You need mutual respect, appreciation, passion, drive and ability to get up everyday to just want to push through life with this person. There should be some crazy passion, jump out of building, go diving in craving shit and hop on a plane at a moments notice, kinda love. Anything else is just wasting your time-- and I say this regardless if you have kids or not, having a kid isn't a good enough reason to stay with someone or get married.

One of my saving grace was advice from my mother as a child she gave me. She pushed for a great education at all times. My mother was an amazing stay at home mom. You name it she did it. Three home cooked meals daily, house spotless at all times, laundry, errands, bills, kid drops offs, involved in every activity,—you name it the perfect stay at home mom. My dad came home and his only job was to enjoy us. She wanted more than that for me and wanted me to have a backup plan. Why a backup plan? Stuff happens. You need to be able to stay afloat on your own, it’s just that simple. People die, people change, and people leave. As my lawyer said marriage is never forever, there is always an end game, they die, they leave..but divorce surely is forever. ;-) You need to be able to support yourself one and whatever else you have on your plate. In any situation, you need to be able to dust yourself off and move on like a big girl without anyone’s help or money- in order to do that you need to have skills to do that.
One of the biggest flaws I see in early 20’s is having that fairy-tale thinking. There isn’t a fairy tale, this is real life. No one is going to fix it for you and you need to truly take responsibility for your own actions. It’s not anyone’s jobs to fix you or make you happy. If you’re not happy, that’s a whole another issue all together and a level of dependency is not a very attractive quality so don’t assume anyone can meet all your requirements or wishes.

Identify behaviors that might be key to walk away. What behaviors am I talking about? There is a long list I probably could include, but really anything that could be subject to make you uncomfortable in any way or manner. Behavior such as: jealousy, hatred, quick attacks, mood swings, anger issues, verbal abuse. Use these items as red flags. Many times the signs are right in front of you. But your 20 year old self isn’t going to allow yourself to listen correctly apparently though. These points’ gets worse down the line and eventually will cause further issues down the line.

Trust yourself and know in your hear your right. I know early on we might question, but really when you know something isn’t right, go with your gut, there is reason for it. Don’t ignore these messages. As I get older I feel that I am more inclined with myself and everything around me.

I am not one to really every "Lets things be..", I like to think things through and will always be that kind of person. As I get older I see where things more clear and where things might have turned for the worse throughout my life. Knowing what you want, yourself out of life is what is the most important factor. Taking care of yourself is always number # 1, as Rodney Dangerfield said..“Look out for number one and try not to step in number two."

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Denver Passed his Therapy Dog Test!!

I take great pride in everything I do. Taking a rescue, little more than 8 months old, which had some issues with strangers and other flaws and turning him into an amazing companion. A companion which that I am able to take anywhere. Lovely walks in the parks, in town, on the beach, barn, you name it. A good citizens in all situations. For anyone that has owned a dog will know it takes time to train a dog anyway, and when you take a dog on from a rescue, you take on all sorts of issues. Hence why most people will avoid and head over to the breeders to get a puppy.
About a year ago I rescued Denver. He was skinny, well underweight, lacking glimmer in his eyes and held his tail between his legs when I first met him. Its truly unfortunate that there are so many dogs that are in the same situation, but this one particular dog, Denver--this handsome fawn mutt, spoke to me. He needed me and I needed him. From there on we rescued each other. Early on I just spent time with him, trying to gain his trust. Not an easy task at first. But in time and slowly I was able to to work him.
My love of this animal, and the love he has for me is in his eyes. He listens very well to me and my commands. Perfect around my nieces and other children.
The other amazing part I can bring him anywhere with me and he is part of the family at all times. Part of the process becoming a therapy dog is taking an online class to understand certain situations which you can run into while on visitations to places like hospitals, retirement communities, public outings, and so on...The dog is test on how well they can deal with pressure, handle simple commands and basically deal with stressful situations, such as hospital situations. I remember hearing my grandmother telling me how seeing a dog in the hospital truly made her day. While thinking about this, imagining if I went to a childrens hospital, how much I would make a child's day as well. Something so simple. Pure. Two Pure and honest creatures connecting. I will not question such amazement. There is many ways to reach people. I am just proud of my Denver and for myself for pushing through. For telling everyone around me he has to be more than just a dog that has no job. I spent a lot of time training and loving him. Through this people will be able to gain even a moment of happiness even if their day might be that great.

Monday, August 24, 2015

Healthy Lifestyle in 1-2-3.

Fitness doesn't have to be overly complicated, or a daily obligation imprisonment. Start small. Nothing is built overnight and you can't push a full lifestyle change that way either. If your overweight, it will take some time. If you just had a baby? Well it took 9 months to get that..it will take sometime to get back. Regardless of your status, you need to have patience. Take pictures and measurements. Throw out the scales. Trust me on this one..the scale can be pretty taunting, especially if your going to be lifting heavy and actually lifting within a routine, you WILL gain weight. I am not talking about unhealthy weight, but you do need to know you will gain weight, muscle does weigh more than fat. I don't know about you I rather be fit and full of muscle than, lighter weight and skinny fat any day.

For anyone starting the process, great! Congrats to you! That's the first step. The choice, you want a better life. A healthier one for you, your family and everyone around you obviously, since a healthier you is a better way to present yourself to the world. Take each day as it is. Don't worry about yesterday. This will not be easy, but the best things in life aren't easy. Everyday you wake up, make the decision though you will do better. Eat one meal better than the last. It doesn't have to be a complete overhaul. But understanding where you want to be and where you are will help you figure out what you need to do. If you want it bad enough, it won't matter, you will carry your meals everywhere and eat healthy to get better results. The best bet is to really slowly empty your cabinets of the junk and don't bring it back there. I am not saying get it once in a while, just not have it in the house tempting you. After a while it won't even be an after thought. Myself, I don't have any treats or soda. I just don't. I know what will happen to a bag of chips or a candy bar, I will eat it in a binge and feel like crap right after.

Sit less. Make it a goal you will not sit a lot throughout the day. Well you ask, well I work what do I do? Well, I am in IT and I get up whenever I need a break and at lunch exercise to some degree. Brain and body both need a break. If your home, stay off the couch, and do more. Imagine how much would get accomplished if you did.

Relax outside your home. Get outdoors as much as possible. Find a hobby, walk, run, OUTSIDE. Yes outside, you know that place that is outside your door at your home? Yes that place, that place that is not your couch as well. :)~ Lookup areas to take a great afternoon hike, or head off to the local beach/lake/river/pond/pool--this is really regional, wherever your watering hole is head there. Relaxing outside, taking in the fresh air, can help in and out.

Adjusting your workouts. Okay, so you want to be healthy? You figured out the diet sorta--(pshhh DON'T EAT CRAP- that's the secret..) Fitness end, what are you going to do for your goals? Whether it is fat loss, muscle, endurance, etc, you need to focus at hand what you want. You need a mix of certain workouts regardless in order to accomplish these goals. If your just starting out, start small, long walks, lunges here and there, squats at home. Check out some of my @ Home workouts- Listed below. Pick up some light dumbells,a yoga mat, a ball and a resistance band. No gym needed, no excuses.
Leg Workout

Back and Biceps

Chest and Triceps

Sleep. We all know that we should sleep more. I know I tend to get the worst night sleep ever, its just how I am. But you need to try to focus on getting enough sleep in order to properly allow your body to recover.

Walking. Walk MORE. Park your car far away from the store, walk around your neighborhood, walk up all stairs.. get the message? You be surprised how much this will do, but not allowing yourself to get out of NOT walking you are forcing your body to exert more energy. Stay active right?

We all tend to know what is healthy, we know what is not good for us. If you just take the step to be healthier on a daily basis, its the littel changes like this that make all the difference. By doing this you will be able to attain your fitness goals and set you up for long term results. Don't get discouraged, everyday you do today is adding onto your results. Takes notes of how you feel, your measurements and pictures. Go by how your clothes fit. How you feel. How I felt at 145 pounds was much more satifying to myself than 120 any day in my skinny fat days.

Monday, August 17, 2015

Emotional Eating. Check it.

There are so many reasons why any of us will over eat or even over indulge. I won't say don't have that amazingly delicious cookie or maybe gram's classic cheese cake..but there is one thing you always have to consider. Moderation. Sure have it, but know when to stop. The food you eat daily is your diet. Don't think of it as restricting, but how you eat DAILY. That's the issue with most people with that word.


1. Recognize your patterns (mindfulness)
2. Track your food
3. Make a plan (instead of chocolate try some grapes)
4. Find other things that make you happy - stay in the positive and avoid the negative.
5. Fill the void - jobs, hobbies, clubs, journal, takes walks, longer workouts, PREP MEALS!! etc.

Stay busy. Keep your mind in check and your body. The rest is pretty simple.

Monday, August 10, 2015

Leaning out. Cutting the Fat and Cutting the Bull.

Getting closer to my competition. Starting to get shredded. Lets do this. This is not easy, F No. There are no magic training programs, no secrets, and no magic pills. You have to do the work, its just that simple. HOURS some days just to get the GOAL in.

There are no late night bar trips after work and hanging around eating pizza once I am completely in the game. Takes a lot of commitment and lots of environmental factors you need to overcome.

I will be maintaining my muscle and bringing down my fat % almost in half. Blood work will be taken to keep the health in check to confirm where I am and how much I need to watch. All and all the end of the day its trying to approach the most perfect physique which is underneath. Over the last year I have prepared, I have my supplements ready, food on point and increased my muscle, since I knew I would cut/lean out around this time. Since you need to have the muscle on point before you lean out your fat.

Ready set go. Excited. Time commitment is major, HOURS of preparation. Nutrition is key. Prepare to succeed or prepare to fail. There is no middle ground for this. Mental and commitment is #1 factor.

This is my tipping point. You want amazing results? You can do it. If you have the mental focus you can achieve this, remember the GYM is the easiest part, the rest is controlling your environment and not allowing it to CONTROL you. Here's to my new goals and everyone kicking their GOALS! You can do it and for any of the haters, watch this its going to be pretty amazing ride.

You want this get it! :)

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Live, Learn. Lessons Learned From Divorce.

There are so many adventures I could discuss. I could write about fitness all day, how to shape those buns of steel, how to chisel hard rock abs and pretty much any other way to stay fit. But to save my own tail, apparently I failed to save my own sanity quick enough by staying in an unhealthy situation.

I have found that there are many women and men, that are starring at the wall, pretty much pondering the same life question. “Is this really it? Why do I feel so alone..?” Regardless of your financial situation or anything like that, it doesn’t matter, towards the end of something specifically a marriage you to try to rationalize a lot. There are so many items you can try to decide you will put up with, but when it’s time to end it, you do. You break it apart. Lots of people find themselves in a pretty awful situation. Would you rather be in a terrible marriage or alone? I know for I being alone was the best decision for me regardless. I am sure it is different for everyone, but in my eyes my own sanity, my lifestyle and my health it was the best decision breaking away from a completely negative situation.

For starters money doesn’t buy happiness of any kind. Sure two working professionals can make good bank, but in reality it doesn’t provide anymore love, caring or respect on a day to day life. I know plenty of people dirt poor and are happy as a pig in shit, but two of us were never able to figure it out even though we could pretty much buy it all.

Leaving money aside looks. It sure is a good cover for a lot. Pretty face can get you only so far. You can be only so attractive, and if you add in negative qualities, you truly see how much of an ugly person you could be. How good looking are they after they are yelling, demeaning you in front of friends and family, or even blaming you? Doesn’t matter how you look at it, you can fall just as madly in love with an ugly guy that makes you feel pretty incredible, which is supportive. That alone can make them pretty attractive at the end of the day.

Money, Check, Looks Checks. Onto sex. Sure a good romp in the sack is a great thing, but its just sex if there is no meaning, no feeling or any passion. It’s just two bodies. No soul. No heart. Doesn’t matter how good you are at sex, if your partner treats you disrespectfully, it’s not worth it at all and takes away from it completely.

From time to time you can start to think about the good times and remember when. “O yea, he was great..during xyz..” But what about the time he forgot about your birthday or a holiday, or told you that you didn’t deserve a present for whatever reason for Christmas. Little things at the end of the day are what matter. I don’t need anyone being discouraging, disrespectful or insulting. You can’t change how people are and you need to accept that. We all change in some way, whether you grow together or grow apart. You have to accept this.

Another wonderful fantastic point for me anyway I had no children with my ex husband. Sure I know we tried and whatnot, but really I am so glad we don't have that kinda of attachment holding us down for the next 20 years or whatever. That would of been worse. As much as I would love to have some offspring, having kids to save a marriage or hold someone down to stay with me isn't how I want to roll or even set an example for my future kids like that. My self worth is beyond anything like that and I am far from a walking uterus for anyone. If I want a kid I will do that myself, no man needed. Mind you this is my opinion, and others can do as they want, (i'm sure they have reasons, cash, get people to stay, whatever..) but in my eyes bringing in another life into this world while you are already having problems and NOT in love with that person, is just a setup for complete disaster.
There is no amount of anything to stay in a negative situation. Alone really is not as scary. I was far more alone being married any day. You learn to deal with it all, yourself. Things may seem daunting, but like anything else you can learn. New bills, less money coming in, smaller home, whatever.. You can deal with it. You know why? Your peace of mind is worth a fortune. I could have stayed in my marriage but I choose to move on, regardless of how you decide to end it or I did it—doesn’t matter, its about your happiness, sanity, and knowing enough when to walk away. I respect myself far too much to be dragged under.

Friday, July 31, 2015

Fun horse shoots!

I like to keep things interesting. I don't think of myself as a model or anything like that. And quite honestly, I am very humble and shy about certain things. I merely fell into certain things and am always shocked people want to take pictures of me. :=) And when a friend offers to take pictures of me and my most prized possessions. What can I say? Really not too much. I just can't resist. Through the course of the last few years I have met a lot of great connections and Dawn was one of these great connections. She has a lot of great ideas and very outgoing. I feel really honored she always wants to shoot me. What girl when they are growing up doesn't look at these amazing pictures in these magazines and think wow, I want to be just like that person??!
The ideas we came up with were not only a horse shoot, but lets bring in some period outfits. Lets do something different. Sure its hot right now. Its in the middle of the summer, talking mid 90's with 60% humidity in a swamp area. Yes, lots of fun around mosquitoes and of course very glamorous. We had the entire barn after hours, which was good since we were making a lot of noise and my parents were assisting in anything on the ground. They were great helpers throughout the shoot. I really like working with creative, positive people.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Future Goals

I could go on all day about the fitness goals. Of course since this is just one blog post I will try not to bore you too much. At the present time I am trying to get my personal training certificates updated and expanding my business as a whole. I truly love to help people. All kinds. Knowing someones potential when I look at their eyes gives me such joy.
Sure I am an engineer by trade, but fitness, being an athletic is something that I have true passion for and enjoy helping others reach their potential. This sorta passion drips down to my other passions obviously. My horses. I hope to one day work with children on horseback. Crazy dream huh?! I don't think so. I have two amazing nieces whom have this one amazing aunt..hmmm I wonder who I am talking about. Only 3 and 4, they are already pretty in love with horses and animals as a whole. And throughout my life watching how animals can truly help reach a child, is an amazing thing. Animals are very much like children. They have a pure heart. They love in one way. There is no holding back, its pure, honest and captivating. They have this true passion for life and ready for everything. As always us adults simply complicate life by growing up and add in unnecessary evils.
I hope to visit a few different cities throughout the US this year to help pursue my goals and reach further to explore new ideas. Hoping to check out LA, Miami, who knows where else. Hoping to get more shoots in while in these areas. Branch out of my comfort zone and truly take in and absorb these ideas. I hope to share my positive message with the world in some way, even if its in such a small manner.

Friday, July 24, 2015

Goals are made for smashing!

Happy to report officially I am on my way to competing in NEW ENGLAND CHAMPIONSHIPS in Boston in November! Very excited! I have a great team to work with Heidi's Fitness Studio Has been fully assisting in with me to KICK my butt!! wink emoticon There will be a lot of great surprises as well. Lots of great friends and support have come out of the wood works. I am a VERY blessed person wink emoticon Excited! Scared! Ready for a new Challenge. Lets do this. Lots of goals 2015. LETS DO THIS.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Protein Pancakes.

I am not one to shy away from food. Who really is? I am not into drinking my meals, hey- I am NORMAL. SO pancakes, thin crepes, bring em on!! Life should be about balance, give and take and ENJOYING great food. Because if it doesn't taste good then you won't eat it and avoid eating. Which is not something you want to do ever. You should be eating every few hours :)
Back to my pancakes. Pretty simple recipe and you can add some light almond on top or even your favorite organic honey or some fruit.

INGREDIENTS
1/4 cup raw oats
1/4 cup cottage cheese
1/2 scoop protein powder
1/2 cup egg whites

DIRECTIONS
Blend all the ingredients until a batter forms. Pour over a hot griddle.
Flip when the edges start browning.

Enjoy! Have some fun with these. I might make these for my nieces and actually get creative with some cookie cutters and make different cartoons.

Eat well. Stay fit. And Enjoy life!

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Keeping it real with family, friends and a fun filled summer..

So many ways to enjoy your time off with family/friends without killing your diet. Personally I am not into total cheat days, they screw with my body way too much. But everyone has different goals and for me cheat here and there is OKAY--but entire day throws me off. Way too many carbs and I literally go into carb coma.

Enjoy your day with family. Eat prior to all cookouts and just select healthy options. Lean burgers without buns or go with a low carb wrap option. Have a nice salad and put some chicken on it.

Not saying stray away from the awesome treats, just don't over do it.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Keep on getting up..

I get asked a lot. "how do you have the drive to do keep pushing after a long day.." Pretty simple. I want this and no one else is going to do it for me. Long days, stressed, sick, doesn't matter. We are all overworked, stressed.. I can list a long list of excuses, but I can point out so many positive reasons to overcome that sorta BS.

Results are made by making the first step. Excuses get you no where. You want to be healthy? You want that body? Stash away the materialistic and invest in yourself. At the end of the day, its what is truly important.

On that note, Have a great week.

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Comfort breeds complacency - "You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try."



As much as we all like to live in our own comfort zones.."Hello couch, you truly understand why I love to be lazy and don't expect anything from me.." What a great relationship. :)

We all get into that pattern from time to time. It is even good to take some sort of hiatus from certain routines, switch it up, or even take a few days to chill and eat like a piggy, depending on your goals. The lifestyle I have choose isn't exactly everyone's cup of tea. Weekly meal preps, high grocery bills for the best quality produce/meats, the upting hours at the gym, and pretty much trying to fit everything else in without going completely crazy. I work a pretty normal job, and many times work well over 60 hours a week though depending what is going on with the company. But regardless you make choices. I made one a long time ago that I was not okay being, "just okay". I wanted more for myself. People can do whatever they want with their own lives..but mine, I am not okay with being content with just the standard lifestyle. I have always lived some sort of outgoing lifestyle, but after my issues with my back/hip started affecting my everyday life, I knew I had to push further..I had pain and I needed to fix myself. I was not okay with being on medication, and just telling people I was not able to do whatever just because of the pain. And who cares right? Everyone is in some type of pain, for me I didn't want to to be my be all end all, of keeping me from living my life, family, friends, horses and the rest of the fur creatures that need me. Everyday we make these decisions though. Ride or Die so to speak. You don't like something change it. But by doing the same old, gets you in the same course and will not change anything.

My journey was never about getting skinny (although I have never been fat..) I guess skinny / fat with some muscle, but to be stronger as a whole, mind, body and soul connection. By going to the gym, pushing through the pain, sweat and tears I was able to build a new self in and out. I had never thought I would ever think of myself like the way I do now. I am in better shape then I was at 22 and truthfully, probably am in better shape then most 20 years old that I see walking around. Every time I left the gym I knew I put my everything in there, I tore down everything I could and lifted until I truly failed. For me life needs to be pushed. Not just okay with the comfort. Work hard, workout harder and live the rest aspect of your life pretty bad ass. You go only around once and its it. Visit the world, try new jobs, and while doing that inspire people around you.

I was always told I was special, told to do more. be better and to look into that mirror and KNOW you can do it. No one else is going to give you that. My mother always pushed me, told me to DO better then her. Amazing woman with those words. Pretty much shocked people through the course of my years and hope to continually doing so...who knows what I will do next or how else I will transform. End of the day you need to believe it. Go out there and do something...you have plenty of time to rest when your dead.

"You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try."

Thursday, January 15, 2015

“I’ve come from nowhere, and I'm not shy to go back.”

“I’ve come from nowhere, and I'm not shy to go back.” - Jason Statham

Taking a little step back here, resetting the brain, body and soul. A new year tends to make people feel they need to reevaluate. But for me mid December I signed up for a 12 week program with an actual trainer to get myself out of the funk I was in. Knowing where I had started, which was a cardio crazed person years ago, who wanted to be healthy to the person I am today, my mind, body and soul have completed morphed into a more confident person, that can do anything. It just takes one moment to change it all. And that moment for me was when I changed my lifestyle. Because this is not a diet, or exercise program. It is a lifestyle. How I live. I carry food, gym daily, walk with friends and stay active as often as I can. Of course I enjoy life, have some wine with friends and enjoy some froyo. Who doesn't? It is about living life to the fullest, but knowing where I came from and knowing what I have been able to overcome throughout the year is just simply amazing.

Life is about what you put into it, good, bad. You can walk around how ever way you want, but if you don't have your mind in check you don't have your true-self together. For me, this lifestyle is something I can control. I can hear people outside my world--telling me they don't understand my goals, or my lifestyle, and they complain about their lifestyle, or problems..weight..not healthy, etc. But really there is no way around it, if you don't have your body in check you got nothing. You get one chance at this. One body. And if you fill it with crap, well you will fell like crap. I am not telling anyone need to be 100% gun ho like me due to my lifestyle, I am not some crazy cult like that. But find something you are completely passionate about to keep you motivated, keep you going and your body in check. Your brain will thank you and you will lead a better, more successful day to day life.

Regardless, be willing to reset, go back at anytime at any point. Remember where you started, remember who you are and what you wish to be. At any time you are in control no one else is taking the wheel for you. So put down the nail file and ding dongs, take a moment to think..hmm What can I do to better myself and the people around? The answer might surprise you and by you being a better you, it will help others around you.

To all my followers have a great new year! Work hard and never give up!